The More I Seek You

As I am sitting in my recliner drinking hot tea from my favorite orange mug I am realizing how much I have to be thankful for. I purchased my first home this summer and it is really beginning to feel like it is home. Pictures are on the wall and tomorrow the Christmas tree will be up. Everyone who comes in my home says that it is peaceful. I am thankful for that because that was my prayer - that my house would be a place of peace. I went through a time in recent years where I needed a place of peace and I know what it is like trying to find that. By finding a place where I felt safe and peaceful I was able to learn that peace can be anywhere, because peace only comes from God. My prayer is that I can help others realize the same thing.

I am heading into a quiet season for the next few months and I feel God calling me closer to Him. Wanting me to spend more time with Him. The song in my heart is "The More I Seek You". And that is my goal, just to sit at His feet and become overwhelmed with the realization of His peace and His love for me. It's the next step on my Journey. What is the step Jesus is asking you to take and are you willing to do it?

Thankful

Today I was talking with a good friend. It is her 25th wedding anniversary. We were talking about the way that God works things out in your life in order to put you in the place He needs you to be.

I am sooooo thankful for the things I have gone through. Being completely honest at the time I did not necessarily like what was happening. But today I was able to walk back through some of the things that have happened in the last 12 years and see how they all worked together to get me to where I am today. I honestly have no doubt that I would not be where I am and involved in the ministries I am without going through the rough times. So tonight while I may be frustrated and ready for the next door I am also so very thankful that God took the shattered pieces of my life and allowed them to help others.

Storms

Is it possible to get over your fears?

For years I was absolutely petrified and near about paralyzed during thunderstorms. Right now I am at home just enjoying the sound of the rain and yes even the thunder. I feel completely safe and at peace.

I wonder if the next time I am going through a stormy patch in my life if I will remember this moment and trust that the God who has given me peace over one of my biggest fears is the same God who wants to give me peace in my storm. Sure hope so.

Always remember He said He would never leave you or forsake you. He is ALWAYS there no matter how you feel or what is happening. And if you get scared and forget all you have to do is call His name and He is there.

My heart is breaking

Today my heart broke for my country. The people live in such darkness and with no hope turn to things such as alcohol, drugs and promiscuity. There is no hope that they know of. I just learned that in one major city there is no church. There is actually not a church for 1500 miles. By now you may realize that I am not speaking of the US. No the country that pulls at my heart and at times I want to be there so bad it hurts is Russia. I can’t begin to express how I am feeling as I type this. You see there is an appeal to go to Siberia to help start a new work. The ironic thing is I always joke about how God made me to live in Siberia (I absolutely love the cold weather.)

The thing is I know, I know, I know with out a shadow of doubt that I am in the place that God wants me to be in right now. I know that He placed me where I am at for such a time as this. I know that the training and experience I am gaining is exactly what He wants so that I can be a blessing and further the Kingdom. Yet my heart hurts. Sometimes being in the will of God is not easy, at the moment I would much rather be making plans and getting on a plane. But I can have peace because I know God can feel what I feel and He is giving me a big hug right now.

If you have a chance go to the following link. Learn about the opportunity and pray for labors. And please promise me that if God tugs at your heart and you can go that you will contact the Carpenters.
http://helpamissionary.com/Media/MediaManager/RecruitSiberia-1.pdf